If you haven't read part one, I recommend you do it, since you'll be confused.
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When Sam saw me, he smiled and spread his arms so I could fit right in, giving me a tight hug.
“You were awesome,” I said. He didn’t answer. Instead, he looked over my head to Trevor, who was still standing behind me.
“Hey man, it’s been a long time.” Sam's voice surprised me. He sounded like he knew Trevor.
“I know. She’s right, you guys were pretty good.” Trevor smiled again, eyes flashing just for a second toward me and then coming back to settle on Sam’s face. It made me shiver, and I knew it shouldn’t have. It felt wrong to stand next to Sam, wrong to look him in the eyes and smile. Not after what happened between Trevor and I. I felt like a cheater, someone who didn't even deserve to be surrounded by strong arms- Sam's arms. And I knew I felt bad and sad, but somehow, deep inside, some tiny part of me was signing and dancing, happy to have met Trevor.
“You guys know each other?” I asked, looking from one to the other. Trevor winked at me, smiling once again, like nothing was wrong with this situation. I forced a smile, trying to cover the guilty look that I knew was making its way onto my features.
“Yeah, we went to school together for a bit,” Sam said, taking me by the waist. I had the impulse to push him away, but I got myself together before I could even move my hand. Trevor seemed to see the conflict inside of me, his blue eyes pouring into mine, making my world swirl. A tumble of contradicting thoughts flew inside my head like hundreds of tiny birds. Yes. No. Sam. Trevor.
“I should go. For Today’s about to begin and the mosh’s going to be insane. It was nice to see you again.” Trevor smirked, shaking Sam’s hand and grabbing my arm in a sort of embrace, making my skin tingle. He walked away, saying hello and nodding to a few other guys before finally disappearing.
“How did you guys meet?” Sam asked, planting a kiss on my forehead. "It’s completely packed out there."
“I was stuck beneath people during the Wall Of Death, he got me out and we went outside for air.” I heard him sigh beside me.
“I don’t like it when you’re in mosh pits and stuff like that. Somebody could really hurt you...” He drifted off, his arm around my waist tightening. I couldn’t help but compare him to Trevor. Sam was overprotective when Trevor had admired me for having the guts to go in there.
“Well I didn’t.” He didn’t answer but veered me to the right, where a few of his band mates where talking and putting away their guitars. They said their hello’s and I smiled, not bothering to actually use words. I was tired and I wanted to go. Unfortunately, I knew that Sam wasn’t ready to go just yet. He would be talking with other guys, technicians, fans... The usual after a show. Whenever I was with him, I knew that I had to put up with it, at least for a little while. I also knew that he didn't mean to leave me out, or to impose himself, but it was his friends, and his time, like he had explained to me one time. I had freaked plenty of times, but now I was just used to it, and I shut my mouth. I owed him that at least.
He left to go sit with his friends on a couch, dragging me by the hand. We sat down and he talked for a while, just saying stupid things and laughing, but he didn’t even realize that I wasn’t joining in. I was fidgeting with my phone instead. Taking it out of my pocket, opening it, closing it, putting it back in. And then back again, turning it in my shaky palms.
“I need to go to the bathroom,” I whispered in Sam’s ear, leaving the seat beside him.
"Are you okay?" He asked, the corners of his mouth slightly up in a smile. Paul, the drummer, was talking about the latest party he was at, and apparently, everyone was finding his story very funny.
"Yeah, I just need some air, I'm a little bit tired." I smiled at him, looking right into his eyes. I could see a spark there, probably the adrenaline from the show still tingling in his veins. He was always gleaming when he was on stage, and I thought he looked wonderful and alive. It was his passion after all.
"You want to go home? We can go. I mean..." He drifted off, arms flexing like he was about to get up. I could see a little concern hidden away in his features, like he wanted to make sure I was happy. I knew him well enough to know that he just wanted me to be comfortable, and if I wasn't, he would have no problem to go and leave his friends.
"No, it's fine. You can stay here, I'm going to hitch up a ride. But thanks anyways," I tried to be as convincing as I could. He seemed like he was okay with it, and he nodded, pulling me back against him to steal a kiss from my lips. I tried to resist him, turning my head on the side so his lips crushed against my cheek. I didn't look back when I walked away, feeling sick and wrong.
I walked fast to the bathroom, closing the door and locking it when I finally got there. I felt like crying for no reason at all. I looked myself in the mirror, disgusted by the water that was filling my eyes. God, what is wrong with me?
I slid my back down the wall until I was sitting on the ground. I took out my cell, searching for Trevor's name in my contact list. I found it and when I did, I let out a breath, like I was happy he had actually done it.
I typed and sent a message. His answer came in fast; I didn’t even have to the time put my cell back into my pocket. I asked him how was the concert so far and he answered he wasn’t there anymore.
I’m back home, do you want me to pick you up? I typed back the answer with trembling hands, maybe of excitement, or nervousness, or even of disgust. I didn’t know really.
I’ll be there in a few minutes, wait for me outside.
I didn’t even take the time to respond. I just had to get out, and the faster, the better. I wasn't sure if my brain had just turned off and I just couldn't even think about anything, or I just tuned all the guilty speeches my mind was rambling.
I got up and walked to the front of the venue, careful to hide from Sam’s view.
When I got to the front, I only had to wait a few minutes before a blue corolla Daari pulled up beside me. Trevor stretched across the passenger seat to open the door for me, calling me to get in.
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