You told me you loved someone else and I ran like hell. I could have run straight to hell, but I never stopped running. Too fast for the devil I am. I told you, Please, don’t fall in love with someone else and you went and did. You didn’t even run after me. You just yelled “Wait!” without having the decency to reach out to me. I remember when we walked in that field in the park and we saw those balloons drift away in the sky. You said to me “I want to hold onto them and go wherever they go.” I smiled when you looked at me as I thought of your simple wish. I pictured you holding on to them, wide-eyed, looking below you, hovering over the places you said we would visit. I pictured you looking down, looking for me.
We walked in the field some more until we saw those two little boys with nothing on but their tan skin and underwear. They were fishing on the dock with the old man, remember? He spoke with an accent that sounded Russian, saying something like “Yes, when we moved to Amereekah your mother loved to feesh too.” And we saw him walk his naked boys up the shore, leading them somewhere else, bringing no catch along with them.
I know you remember that day too, because you said nothing when we came home. Your eyes were glass and you day dreamed instead of your night dreams. I know you were thinking of our wonderland with your balloons and the little boys with the tiny fishing poles. Those stars and balloons kept you up at night. You were faced towards the window and it was one of those moments when I realized you were perfect all over again. I couldn’t say a word. Your hair spread out the sexiest way on the pillow and I just kept my mouth shut. Blinds open, lips parted as you turned and kissed me. You brought your fingers to my scalp and pushed my hair back, saying “I’m floating right now, holding on the balloons and I’m looking at you.” We laughed for a little bit.
“You are whatever you are,” I whispered. And we just laid in silence like two aging dogs: mommy and daddy, as I closed my eyes for two minutes and I listened to you breathe—exhale then inhale. She loves me so, she loves me not. I looked to you looking at the ceiling when I said it. “Please don’t be in love with someone else.”
That was almost a year ago. But all the hours since then didn’t stop me yesterday when I ran like hell away from you as you told me. Your stupid eyes told me everything.
“No Cassie! What about me? You said you loved me.”
“I’m sorry.”
“No you’re not! How could you do this? Why the hell would you do this to me?”
“Bran, I’m sorry.”
“Cass, please. Don’t do this. Don’t… What about us? What about everything we did?”
“I’m sorry. I just can’t do this.”
“But tell me why.”
“Because I love him.”
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