I've always had some impossible dreams. When I was little I wanted to be a mermaid, like Ariel. She was a mermaid who always dreamed to be part of our world, so she became human, I certainly thought if she could do it then so could I. So I spent hours swimming in my pool, trying to become one. Sometimes I would tie my feet together while I was wearing flippers, too make me a little closer to becoming a mermaid.
When I was done with that phase, I dreamt of having magical powers and being able to manipulate everything. I thought that if I had these amazing powers I could have anything I wanted, that the world would be open for me. My secret hope was that maybe if I developed these powers I could become a hero like Wonderwoman or Starfire, and have to fight evil villians like them. Or maybe just fight the evils we are faced with today. I still want that now, to be a hero, but atleast I know it's literally impossible to have superpowers.
Now I'm dreaming of something that would seem possible, I want us to be friends again. And I just don't mean friends, I want us to he how we used to be, when you were pretty much my bestfriend. But it's hard now for that all to be true again, because well I'm in love with you. I've been in love with you since we were thirteen years old, I'm turning sixteen in a couple months and it'll pretty much mark the three years I've been in love with you. When I mark that day on my calendar you won't be there to celebrate with me. You'll be with your new friends, or with a new girlfriend, and I'll just watch you slowly destroy yourself.
I really hate that we've drifted apart, and that's mostly my fault. I shouldn't have pushed you away just because you were dating some girl I was jealous of. Every girl you dated made me jealous, and you've dated quite a few girls, but this girl was my breaking point. I just had to get away from you for a while, I needed a breather from our one sided relationship. I just didn't know that not talking to you at all for a month would be the biggest reason why we drifted apart. And then when you pissed me off it just added more fuel to the burning hatred I had for you. I was so angry with you, so I just severed all contact with you, and that is the biggest reason why we drifted apart.
It wasn't entirely my fault though, I did try to talk to you again before you angered me, but I saw how much you changed or maybe I just saw the real you. Being my hopeful self I thought that maybe the new people you met were the reason why you are acting the way you are. Our friends who knew you before your big change, the ones who always saw how much I loved you, they agree that you've just became more arrogant, cocky and perverted. The qualities that I knew you had, but now they were blown out of proportion. Maybe your new friends are the reason why you're so different now, before you were so nice and you weren't a complete attention whore, but now well in the deep end of the attention whore pool. Your head is like a balloon now, it's just so big and blown up, it's too big for your body to hold and one of these days you'll pop. And I hate to say it, but I will be there to help you again, to make sure you're OK like I always do, and when I'm done helping you pick up the pieces of your heart you'll just ignore me and what I've done for you.
Maybe if I wasn't in love with you I could deal with this a lot better, but that's just a stupid thought. Why does falling in love and wanting it back have to be so impossible? I mean Ariel was able to become human and get the guy, and her dream came true. But when I dreamed her dream I ended up with nothing. Maybe I'll keep dreaming about being a mermaid; it seems a lot more possible than waiting for you to open your eyes and see that I've always been there.
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