Heaven Skyanna Wilmington.
Such a big name for a little girl.
Ten fingers. Ten toes.
Two hands. Two feet.
Two arms. Two legs.
Two eyes.
A nose.
A mouth.
A heart too big for your tiny body to handle.
Such a big name for a little girl.
Ten fingers. Ten toes.
Two hands. Two feet.
Two arms. Two legs.
Two eyes.
A nose.
A mouth.
A heart too big for your tiny body to handle.
Dear baby I will never meet,
Your mother and I found out you were arriving at such a bad time, but it seemed to smooth things over like a band aide. She would dance and sing around the house, preparing it for you. I was scared; I’m not going to lie. I was not ready to be a father, but with every soft kick I could feel protruding from your mother’s stomach, I became a little more confident. We would stay up all night whispering and giggling to each other about the future plans we had. You were our beautiful baby girl, and every day closer to your mothers due date was a day closer to welcoming you into our lives, becoming a family.
Then the fights started in. She caught me calling other girls, said I was cheating on her because I thought she was fat and ugly. Baby girl let me confide in you; I never cheated on your mother. I loved her very much. Maybe you can tell her that in heaven. Maybe she’ll listen to you. Those girls on my phone were friends from work, helping me become a better parent and husband-to-be. When she kicked me out I was slowly losing my whole world, but I never thought this would happen.
She called me late one night, said she was in labor. I rushed to her apartment, but when I got there your grandma was there; she wouldn’t let me see your mom, said I would cause her stress. I followed them to the hospital. I wanted to see you be born. I loved you just as much as she did. You were my baby girl; isn’t there a saying about fathers and daughters? That witch wouldn’t let me in the hospital room, said I would have to wait until you arrived to see you.
When your grandma came out and told me that your heart was slowing down and they couldn’t get it to go back up I could feel my heart, literally, break into millions of pieces, shredding my insides into a mushy pulp. I stood up, angry. I wouldn’t lose you too, but I guess I did. They laid you in your mother’s arms. The lump in my throat broke free, and I cried just like a baby. You laid there silent, like you were sleeping.
I couldn’t look into your mother’s eyes. Later that night they said she slipped into a coma from all the blood lose, but baby between you and me, she did it from heart break. Comfort her until she comes back to us, Heaven. I promise I will treat her better than before, caress and love her with all my might. Maybe God wanted us to have a trail run before we truly became parents, maybe it was to show us we aren’t meant to be, maybe it was to show us we’re soul mates, whatever the reason, I can’t live without your mother here with me. Heaven bring her back, please.
Love,
The daddy you never seen
The daddy you never seen
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