I may be different.
Okay, everyone is different.
I’d rather sit on my bed with my headphones on listening to music all day rather than spending time hanging out with my friends.
I don’t know, maybe it’s a weird thing artists like me have. But I like it, the music calms me and takes me to a world separate from this one.
Don’t get me wrong, I love this world but sometimes I just want to get out and imagine my own place. Because at times, I just want to escape this world. Even just for two seconds, I want to. I want to be in this world, it’s just that there are times that I can’t go through without a little imagination.
That’s why we have imagination. It’s your own place to escape wild things that hit you like an earthquake.
Those situations which I want to escape really aren’t the best places to be at.
I literally hurt. There’s pain all over my body, biting at every cell I’m made of. It’s hard to live through without some cry for help. My blood runs with ache, making sure I suffer.
But I don’t know why I should be suffering. I don’t even think I should be in pain.
No matter what I do, I’m still in pain.
Each time I get into these incidents I feel a hurt which won’t go away as quickly as it came. It just stays in me like a lost puppy finally finding their home.
Even though you caused all my pain, you’re okay. I just wish that you would get hurt, the same way I did.
I never give up. I never lose my strength. I’m the strong one. But inside is a different story. Well, not completely. It’s just I have pain, that’s the only difference inside.
Family problems don’t hurt too much because I know they’ll go away. But this problem just won’t slide. A flesh eating virius.
You don’t know how much I hate it. You don’t know how much I’d want you do take it away from me.
But it won’t work.
No one can see my pain because I’m the strong one. Well sometimes the strong one is weak as well.
I don’t give up; I don’t let this ache take me over. I fight against it with ignorance. But I realized it’s really hard to do that, no wonder I ache much more than I had ever before.
But it’s working. Every day I get better when I don’t see you. And that’s difficult since I see you every day. That’s so much pain.
I’m just happy I’m a strong being with family and friends out there for me. That’s why I’m here today with no tear ever falling for you.
That’s why I’m here today.
I’m not a weak person. Even a weak person would be able to withstand this and live like I do. You shouldn’t give up just because of someone, that’s why I didn’t because that would be stupid.
I try with everything in me to stop hurting. To forget. But I can’t. It’s so stupid. Why I even care. But I can’t stop. Every time I see you, I hurt even more.
But, at least I try.
I’m fighting your curse.
You deserve it, not me. I did nothing, you did.
At times I really feel stupid and forget the pain. Even though it’s there, deep inside, I don’t even realize it sometimes. I’m happy and live my life, forgetting everything.
But, like I said, it’s there. It comes back and hits me harder each time. Even when I’m as happy as a teenage girl can be, when it comes it doesn’t go so easily.
I still have pain.
Just because I’m different you can’t accept me? That’s sick. You want me to have pain because I’m different? Because I’m a nice person?
Now that’s just wrong.
I know this and I still feel the ache.
You can be proud of yourself now and tap yourself on the back. Bravo.
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