Submerged in darkness, Caia roamed her mind. She wouldn't regain control of her body until it awoke. For now she would have to bide her time and avoid rogue memories.
A light in the gloom darted towards her.
Crap!
She fled, but it pursued her. Ordinary people speak of memories haunting them. They had nothing on her. Sleep, unconsciousness, coma; wherever she was her subconscious pummeled her with terrors of the past. In normal daily activities it didn’t matter, but when consciousness left her, the subconscious took over.
Closer and closer it came, and slowly it managed to envelop her. It was over. All she could do now was let the memory take its course.
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The light of the sun nearly blinded her. It was mid-day of a beautiful spring. The last spring this planet would ever see. Of course she didn’t know that then. It'd be a long time still before she'd discover that.
It was as beautiful as the untouched places of earth, but at the same time it looked nothing like earth. The ground was covered by small circular moss-like plants, and the sky had more of an orangish-pink tint.
Like earth's sunsets.
Unlike on earth where, for the most part, white leaves generally are a bad thing; every plant was white. It resembled a winter landscape at sunset.
Her back against her an invisible tree trunk, the leaves above shaded her from the sun.
Invisibility was a neat trick to avoid extinction, but invisible leaves can't collect sunlight. Many of the taller plants were a strange combination of scrambled mutations. You could always tell where one of these particular trees was by looking for foliage which seemed to be flying in the air with ‘no support’. Then again you could just run into one…literally. It wasn't as if that hadn't ever happened before.
In her hand sat what could only be described as a computer-like device. It looked nothing like a computer, but its functions were similar. It was a metal sphere twice the size of a golf ball.
Her touch activated it, and as her eyelids shut, it's world unfolded around her. Movies, books, information; everything was available here. A simple thought could do anything; anything that is except change the circumstances unfolding around her.
Screams from outside the digital realm caused her to deactivate the sphere and open her eyes.
The Caia of the present struggled and fought against her subconscious, but to no avail. Back then she was oblivious, but the same couldn't be said for her now. She now knew what would happen if she went looking for the sound, but the past could not be changed. Her memories wouldn't allow themselves to be altered or forgotten, and they manifested themselves in these instances of weakness. For the moment they were in charge.
Eyes of the present through eyes of the past witnessed the gruesome scene once more. Her father, first scientist of Aroxia, lay face first on the ground. Blood oozed from a gash in his neck. The thick liquid poured out and stained the white turf a ghastly dark red.
As her stomach emptied itself of its contents, her gaze by chance wandered to the entrance of the garden. There her mother sat, dazed. Blood streamed out a gash in her head. Terrified, her past self did something extremely stupid.
She reached into her father’s mind…just in time to feel him die.
Intent and purpose seized up on themselves. They were never really part of a plan, and apparently realized so. They reeled off into oblivion, leaving a terror stricken child to do any amount of irrational actions.
Her full consciousness jumped from her body to his. It wasn't a purposeful decision. Everything just overwhelmed her senses, and cut her off from the safe haven of her body. Shock prevented any response to save herself, and without interference she would have been gone. With her mind disconnected from her body, she would follow her father into death's realm. No pain of the many horrible events to come would have the opportunity to torture her.
Then he realized she was there.
No, not the attacker. He was long gone.
Her father was still there, suffering through the pain. His mind still trudged along in a body that was quickly failing him. He had little strength, but somehow he used it to push her back to the surface and bridge the gap from his body to hers.
Behind her, his thoughts whispered quieter than a blade of grass bending in the wind. They flickered in and out of existence; reaching her but not really registering. A jumbled message from her father reached deaf ears. Comprehension had numbed itself into non-existence. Neither Caia of the present nor that of the past perceived a thing other than an emotional tornado of anger and sorrow.
Like hitting a brick wall while running, Caia's past self snapped back to her own body. She lied on the ground unconscious, unable to move or do or think. For the first time, the darkest part of her mind took control from her hands. It played the newly formed memory over and over and over. Each time it sickened her a little more. Each time she retreated from humanity a just a little bit farther.
What was all so great about sentient beings? Her father was dead. They or him or her it didn't matter.
Someone did this. Someone who lived and thought and breathed went out of his way to end her dad's life. What was so great about everything her people created? What was so great about her people?
Her father had spent his entire life devoted to saving their civilization from the hole their government had sunken into. He was a mind searcher just as she was. Or it could be said, she was as he was. They both could read the desires and intentions of those around them. When it came down to it, most people were as corrupt as the government that led them. How could she trust anyone?
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As the world disappeared in black around her past self, the memory faded. She was left alone in the dark. In the distance she could see other memories, but she dared not approach their light. She feared finding more of what she didn’t want to see.
Her past was her enemy, and wished someone could erase her memory just like she had done for her brother. At the time she hadn’t approved of burying his memories, but he begged her. He wanted the pain to go away.
He had been the stable pillar she leaned against when everything continued to go wrong. When he broke, she broke to his desires. He was in the same pain that she was, but she had the ability to end his suffering. He didn't have to hurt. He was older, but at the same time more fragile. She could handle being on her own. She could handle anything...hadn't she proven that so far?
As the light of a memory neared, Caia would back away. It was a game of cat and mouse. Except she was the only mouse and there were thousands of cats chasing her. It went on for hours and hours. Wake up already, wake up...
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Closer, closer, closer; She slowly lost ground. A sickening feeling took her gut hostage as the memory reached her, and slowly began to envelop her. It caught her up and it slowly seeped into her consciousness.
Opening her eyes and blinking, her stomach lurched. The memory had her...no, it didn't. The room was unfamiliar, and the landscape outside the window made it fairly obviously earth. Not per say that it was impossible to conjure up a memory of earth; she had been here nearly half her life now. Her head just couldn't find many earth memories horrifying enough to justify wasting its precious time reserve.Those few that existed didn't match her surroundings.
Proving to herself that it wasn't just in her head, she used the control she always lacked in the nightmare memories to propel herself up. Agonizing pain streaked up her nerves into her brain, carrying a sensation of insatiable pain. She dropped back onto the bed, but it wouldn't cease. Originating near the bottom of her vertebrae and expanding in a crude half circle upwards, it stole both breath and movement from her body. Even writhing in pain was impossible.
Her eyes rolled, but at the same time caught movement. Some liquid glided its way down inside a tube attached in her arm. Upon impact she didn't notice anything, but twenty seconds into it she dropped off into a deep sleep.
Before she went under, she was almost afraid of returning where she just escaped from. For some odd reason, she didn't have the capacity to translate the unformed fear into thoughts. Everything went dark, but no lights appeared on the horizon. Her mind didn't even wander in circles. All thought process just stopped, and she enjoyed her first real sleep since that day, six years ago, when an eight year old witnessed her father’s murder.
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