Living in a society where you disagree with most of its traditions, superstitions, culture, behaviors, and mentality, is a tough and exhausting reality.
Being different in a community does not necessarily mean, one does not belong to it. I was born and raised in this place, somewhere around the world,which I do not find really salient to mention where; what matters to me here is the mystery of being perceived as mesterious in a strange community, what interests me is how can a person be dissatisfied, rebellious and repulsive to all sorts of tastes: Music, coffee shops, stores, markets, post offices..etc.
Wherever you are, you feel out of place, I feel alienated in my own country with my own fellow countrymen.
Today, for instance, I said I am going to break the habit and look different, do something that is not usual, an act of insanity, which I always tend to. I woke up this morning, like every morning in my day- off thinking of how can I spend the first few hours before lunch time.
Then it popped into my mind this idea of behaving crazily, in the eyes of our community, of course. To make a long story short, I simply sat in a coffee shop where people often play cards, gossip and judge other people passing by; I said to my self: now is your time, now is the glorious and most courageous act you are going to perform throughout your lifetime in this small city; I took my best friend out of my bag , put it in front of my eyes and start reading without paying attention to anybody. Yes I begun reading and reading as if I were not there with them, I had a very nice feeling of joy, a feeling similar to the exaltation felt after a victory over an enemy in the battlefield.
lastly, I felt at home, the home I dream ,one day, to dwell in forever, where I can read in public!!!
where everybody else reads, where I will not be thought of as a maniac or a lunatic creature.
I am quite sure they find it odd in this place and you find it odd when you read this article, but I did it at last: I read some pages of a book in a coffeshop!
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