This is my story. Duh. anyway, it's supposed to be colonial US set, so yeah. It's about this kid, Luke, who all these different things happen to and there are a bazillion conspiracy theories against him...I'll be making up a ton of US/UK history but that's OK. I've done my research. Now it's time to have fun.
Do tell me if it's clunky or boring, 'cause of the history thing.
Dear God
I know you think I am
Just another
Sinner
Claiming to be god-fearing and
Righteous
But
I need you to listen to my
Endless cadence of pleadings
Begging you to get me out of this life
This body
I hate this feeling of
Being incomplete so
Dear God, help me…
My fingers are bleeding, small, scarlet drips that fall onto the paper with a rhythmic pitter-patter and spread in tiny, spidery crimson branches from the pool from whence it began. Sweat courses down my forehead, running in jagged rivulets down my face, and the ink-soaked parchment starts to shred, I’m pressing the quill down so hard into it. My head pounds with confusion and hate and complete disgust and so many different things I can’t explain. God, Luke, you need to cry…I try forcing the tears but they won’t come, won’t come because I’ve convinced myself respectable boys don’t cry, but now I know I need to or I’m going to explode; all these different feelings inside of me compressed into one tiny, underdeveloped heart waiting to combust, leaving me…gosh, I don’t know where. I am so completely tired of everything, I just want to leave, get out of this place. I want a life where I can walk down the street without any cares, no worries…I bear the scars of attempting to do this, raised snakes that run down my arms and slash across my chest. I just want to be me, just want to be Luke Irwing…
I am exhausted.
And I know I should go home but I don’t want to, although Mother will be worried sick.
Do I care?
Probably not.
It doesn’t matter to me anymore.
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