It is not a stress reliever or hobby. It is an addiction that has consumed my mind for as long as I can remember. The impulse comes as often as a drug addict desires coke. I know I cannot control it. I know it cannot be stopped. I do everything at night, plan everything in seclusion, and carefully elude those who tried to stop me. This flaw is the only thing that keeps me awake and the only thing that gives me happiness. It helps me. It soothes my weary mind and takes all the tension, the sadness, and the loneliness away.
Tonight its an old, empty warehouse on the outskirts of what used to be a trendy neighborhood. It is the perfect stage. There are few people around. But I know, where ever those people are, they are tucked into their beds, at peace. It has been too long since I have slept like that: a long, dreamless sleep. Sleep seems to run from me. Like everything else. And because of this, I have learnt to trust only myself and to rely on my own instinct.
The air is warm for such a late night and the moon casts its pale blue light into every corner and alleyway it can find. There are no trees near the warehouse. It sits alone, yet it looks majestic. My hand already reaches into the inside of my over-sized coat as I approach the warehouse. It pulls out two familiar items. The first is a silver lighter. The metal is scratched from use. The second is a matching shining silver flask. The liquid inside sloshes around. It is the key object in my performance.
The inside of the warehouse is dark and filled with misty blue moonlight. At the top of the high walls are glass windows, from which the light enters. It is mostly empty, other than a few destroyed wooden crates and one cracked, full-length mirror propped up against one wall. Around me, the shadows giggle in delight and excitement. My audience is ready. I flash a smile. It is meant for the audience but also for myself. The audience's excitement rolls through me and I find myself laughing. Deep belly laughter from the centre of the warehouse swirls through the lifeless air. Opening the flask, I take in the strong scent that burns into my nose. I walk over to one of the wooden crates, listening to my feet hit the cement floor with each step. I pour the contents of the flask onto the wooden remains. Then, I open the lighter and touch the orange flame to the wet and dripping crate. Around me, the audience shifts in anticipation. I watch as the flames feast up the wood. Soon, they will lick up the walls of the warehouse. I take a bow; blow my audience a kiss goodbye. I tell them I will be be back again. As I begin to walk out of the warehouse, I hear sirens in a distance.
They have come to witness the final act. They always do.
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