I had only known him for a year, I hate that he is gone so soon. The crazy blond with a soft tan and his gentle blue eyes. His name was Drew. He moved here a few years ago, when I first saw him, he was taking his first steps into Mrs. Becke's classroom, just across the hall. I had heard that he wasn't the least bit timid. He didn't mind striking up a conversation with a stranger.
We met at a soccer game. He walked up to me, said, "Hey, Your looking nice today!" and sat by me. I was shocked to hear this, I mean, I know i'm pretty, but people just don't tell you at random. I would have found this a bit creepy, if I wasn't fifteen and headstrong. "Thank you! I work hard at it! My name is Lynne, aren't you the new guy in Mrs. Becke's class?" I asked him, smiling.
They were right, he was never timid. We immediately plunged into a conversation about last weeks history final, such a boring topic, but it was just the fact we were talking that made me happy. He was a really great guy. It wasn't like either of us had to force the conversation to go on. He was my friend. A really good friend. We both loved soccer, we could talk about it all day, if we didn't have other things to talk about. I would give me family advice, He would give me relationship advice. A lot of people thought we were dating, but we never did.
Drew was so loving. His parents were on the verge of a divorce, his dad worked as an accountant for some big company, and his mother worked at a diner. He loved them both, even when they came home in such bad shape. He didn't grow angry, he helped them. He would make coffee for them the next day, he would try to sober them up. I love how he was so kind.
One night, his father came home drunk. It was rainy and cold, fog hid the night from view. We were studying for an exam the next day. He came in staggering, an empty bottle clutched in his hand. The retched stench of alcohol followed him like flies. "Who is she?" He asked, his voice slurred by the spirits. "Dad? Where have you been? You said you were at the office!" Drew said, his voice quavering nervously. He stood, and gently gripped his fathers shoulder, stabilizing him. "Let go! I don't need help, I'm fine!" He lied, I started to gather my things. "Just let me help you to bed," Drew said, sighing, he gave me a solemn look, a tear was forming in his eyes. I don't know how he loved his parents..
On my birthday, a few days before him, I invited him over. It wasn't a big party, just me and my family. He came in smiling with a card, and a gift wrapped in red paper. He placed it upon the oak table and immediately introduced himself to my father. My dad looked confused! It was hilarious. "A-Are you her boyfriend?" he asked, stunned. Me and him began laughing together. "No sir, we're just friends," he said politely. "Don't worry dad, we're to good of friends!" I said, smiling at him and Drew. By the end of the party, I think my dad wished we were dating.
We never really had a relationship that was anymore than a friendship. We were more like brother-sister. He said the same about me, we could never have ended up dating, Even if we wanted to, because now he is gone. He just disappeared, just like that, like he never existed. People have been talking about it for days, the police have been trying to find leads, or at least a body. His mother found his room empty, with the window shut. He had just ate dinner with her moments ago.
It's starting to get windy in this old cornfield. It lays nestled amongst red fall leaves, quiet, calm. Yellow and white beams of light are sweeping the rows of young corn stalk, that sway smoothly with the wind. The legs of fellow searchers are made wet by the fresh dew. We are searching for him, it's freezing, and I'm cold with fear, but sweat is still soaking my hair and forehead. The atmosphere is tense, I hope I don't shine my light on his pale, cold face. I just hope I'm not the one to find him. I don't know if I want anyone to find him, that would mean there is a chance he's still alive. If he were to have killed himself, I wouldn't be able to take that either. It would seem like he gave up, and he was never a quitter. He never quit on his mother and father, even after they divorced. I don't think he killed himself, but if he did, I think I'd have to follow him into the cold hands of death.
It's far too dark to keep looking. The cold air is finding its way into the jacket I am wearing, the one he let me borrow two days before he vanished. I place my hands into my pockets to keep them war and I feel a folded piece of paper in it. It isn't mine, I had never put anything in these pockets. I took it out and began to unfold it, It was in his hand writing.
Dear Lynne,
Today is my birthday. I'm eighteen, an adult, and I have to leave you now. I made mistakes, actually, I made a mistake with someone. I won't tell you who, that way you won't hate her. Me and her, we are going to have a child, unless she decides against it. It was never our intent, not our goal, but it was our choice. Whenever she told me, I was scared, I didn't want to be punished, I didn't want anyone to find out, but I wanted to give the baby a chance. I couldn't have him die.
I left it up to her. It is her choice now. That seems to be the problem I'm having, one choice leads to another. Anyway, now that I'm an adult, I've made the choice to start over. A new life, I'm moving away. I won't tell you were. I can't. But now that I'm gone, I will tell you this, I loved you. More than anyone. That's why I'm leaving, I wouldn't be able to see the anger in your face if I told you in person. I guess I'm just too much of a coward.
Remember me,
Your Coward
Warm tears trickle down my cheek, staining the page. Once I'm done reading, I place the paper in my pocket. I want him to have his second chance. "Hey, Everyone come in, it's too dark to keep looking," an officer called out, his voice echoing into the night. I didn't need to keep looking anyway. I've already found him.
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