"Nina, wait. please don't go. We can talk this over. Give me one more chance to make it right! Please Nina!" Jimmy grabbed for the lifeline once more. He watched his happiness hustle out the door into the extra cold November night.
Nina brushed past a frazzled waiter-in-training and bumped a mumbling busboy on her way out. She walked outside, knowing full well that she was stuck where she was since Jimmy was her ride. She sat on the sidewalk, twiddling her thumbs, something she did during the repeated off and on periods. She tried not to sob too much - she had to have control if he came out.
Jimmy slumped in the chair and let his words fall to the table. "I know I can mend this still. Our hearts don't have to be broken. I don't want her to go home and cry herself to sleep. I don't want to go home and cry myself to sleep! Why does this happen to us Nina? Why is it so hard just stay you and me? No! I refuse!" Jimmy stood up, almost tipping the table and causing his chair to fall on the floor. "It's not over! Not tonight it isn't. Waiter! Check please!" He slapped his card down on the table and rushed outside, determined to keep her this time.
"Nina!" Nina jumped at the sound of her nickname being called. She turned to see Jimmy's head behind the double doors to what was her favorite restaurant. She got to her feet as quickly as her skirt would allow her. Her brain told her to run from him but her soul cried out for him to wrap her in his warming embrace and tell her everything would be just fine. "Nina! Wait," his breath was heavy and worry lines crowded his face. "If you leave, there is a good chance that I won't make it through the night. I will stand here on the side of the road in the snow all night, and if I see that morning sun, I will run across the street as many times as it takes until a car hits me and kills me. I won't go home unless you come with me." His feet landed in a slush puddle next to the side walk. He threw his coat, gloves, and hat that he had been carrying onto the ground. "Don't leave me Nina." The tough guy facade could not stand another moment. While his body froze, his tears kept his face warm.
Nina glanced at the big blue eyes, raining onto his soft face, and almost fell in love again, but she made her face and heart cold like the air around her and turned around, trying not to remind herself that she didn't have a ride home without him.
Jimmy tried to speak through chattering teeth and a red runny nose. "Nina, if you leave me here, I will be thinking the whole time about how much I am missing in the smell of your breath, the silly noises you make when you fall asleep on my couch that keep me awake." a little giggle erupted at this recollection. Nina stood silently with her back to him, her heart and mind battling to the death inside of her.
"I know that you are leaving me without a second thought because the weight of all that I left unspoken. Those unspoken words got so heavy and crushed both of us every single day. I know that. I know that those things I should have said but didn't say made you cry at night. Why does this happen to us Nina? Why does every moment have to be so hard? We can't stay together, we can't stay apart. It hard to believe we've made it this far and that we are actually trying to end it."
Nina couldn't face her lover. Tears stinging her face, Nina spoke to Jimmy without looking at his shivering body. "Jimmy we will always love each other, but we just can't-" Nina gasped for breath trying to hide her sobs and prevent her slim shoulders from shaking. "We just can't be together. It doesn't work for us."
"I am begging you! Give me one more chance!" Jimmy's feet were numb from the cold puddle and he knew he would have to die in the cold because he wouldn't be able to run to the cars. The reality was sinking in and he tried to save his life with pity, a card hardly ever used. "Just remember as you walk away from me that this is the last time you will see me. I may not make it through the night and I won't, absolutely will not, go home without you by my side."
Nina tried to force herself to choose a path; give him another chance or go home and leave him for dead.
"I have felt so much through my life, I just didn't show it and the worst hidden feeling that I've had was loving you. I should have let you know and told you everyday. Hiding it was the worst decision of my life. I should never have let it come to us separating. I should never have let you go."
"It's not over tonight. Just one more shot. If you don't, then I will die loving you. But if you go home with me, we can talk it through and work it out. No one can make me move except you Nina." Jimmy fell to the ground through loss of feeling in his feet. He wondered if she did agree to talk it out if he could walk to his car.
"Jimmy it's over! Get to your car and go home!" Nina stomped her foot and held her breath to hide her ragged breath. She faced Jimmy, seeing him shiver on the ground broke her heart. She saw him crippled, crying, and broken-hearted.
"No Nina!No! It's not over! One more chance!" His hand reached out for her but she let it sit mid-air. "We can go home or I can die on the street! I won't go home without you." Jimmy picked up his soaked covers and threw them at Nina.
"You will go home tonight. You won't stay here all night." Nina threw the coat, gloves, and hat back in his face.
"I won't go home without you." A stone cold tone and dead serious face scared Nina.
"Would you really commit suicide over me? Jimmy! Don't talk like that!" Nina's eyes popped open and her eyebrows crowded together. She stepped forward with shock. Her hands rushed to her heart as if that would slow down the heart attack beating.
"I won't go home without you." His whisper was hoarse from the cold.
"Jimmy wait, don't die, no, I would die if you did! Jimmy!" Nina rushed to him, falling on her knees next to him and wrapped him in a warming hug.
"I won't go home, not without you." Jimmy whispered, returning the hug and gently brushing Nina's hair. Nina helped the life she saved to his feet and kept him from falling to the ground. "I promise I will always tell you everything that's going on and I will tell you all the time just how much you mean to me." He smiled his million dollar smile at her. "You saved my life in more ways than one tonight."
"Don't you ever, ever threaten to commit suicide ever again mister!" Her arms tightened around his waist. "I won't walk out on you in a restaurant again, I will tell you everything, I will be here when you need me all the time, and I will never let you fall. I love you Jimmy."
"I love you too Nina."
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