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Dear John,
You have been on my mind more then ever these past 283 days since we parted. Our memories are overwhelming and abundant, which makes it even harder for me to push them out of consciousness. Do you remember how we went down? It wasn't all because of that package you sent me, although that does have something to do with it. I guess mainly it was all because of the fact we were to young to be making such a huge commitment. Fully committing our lives to each other without exploring our other options would have caused problems for our future -- which now doesn't exist. This is not the purpose of this letter to you though...the real reason for writing to you is because I have been struggling with mountains of "what if's". Right as I reach the summit of the mountain currently on my radar, another one, taller then the previous, comes into view.
For example: what if I would have surrendered to your request to have sex? How would our lives today be different? Would this sexual commitment have been enough to hold us together -- or would it have tore us apart sooner? Let's say I did surrender...could this have led to something heavier?
This is the mountain that I am most frequently forced to climb. I often wonder the consequences of the path we chose to take compared to the road we could have traveled down. Though I almost always come to the conclusion that the road and path eventually would have joined back together at the same destiny somewhere on the map.
So I guess we will never know. Mainly because I am not willing to try again, but also because I think I already know the direction each of us is heading. We are both on one-way streets that go in opposite directions.
Yours truly,
Melody
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