"Marra, are you okay?"
Mr. Shorts barely had any time to say this before the rest of the world was eaten up by splurges of tiny black blobs, and after a moment of feeling like I would be dumping my lunch on his cheap 80's-style carpet I found myself reeling from reality.
The same premonition.
It was Pollard Hill.
The grass had become petrified in the white layers of frost. No snow, but ice clutched around the barren branches of skeletal trees and ornamented itself on various headstones.
Jacob P. Francis, Orville Miller, Priscilla J. Ogledst…these were names I’d become familiar with. The past year of my life had seen many hours in this cemetery, and even though the darkness obscured their names I knew where they rested.
My mom was buried here. I rounded the single pine tree that the field of graves possessed, the one source of life in this livid realm during winter, and the confirmation of where I was.
But I wasn’t here willingly. “Damn it!” I hissed, as the person holding my arms behind me stepped on my heels. It was as dark as Hell here. The only reason I knew where I was going was because it was so familiar to me now.
The rest was fuzzy, as usual. My ears were ringing, I remember that. Suddenly the silver ground was speckled red with blood, undoubtedly mine. I clutched my sopping chest, my stomach that was covered in this internal liquid unwillingly externalizing itself.
More footsteps. Am I being left alone, or greeted by another? I didn’t know. I just rested on the pale gray stone that was braced to the ground. My fingers released my skin to trace the words.
ROSEMARY ODELLE CROMWELL - BELOVED WIFE AND MOTHER
1970-2009
OUR CARE SHOULD NOT BE TO HAVE LIVED LONG AS TO HAVE LIVED LONG ENOUGH
1970-2009
OUR CARE SHOULD NOT BE TO HAVE LIVED LONG AS TO HAVE LIVED LONG ENOUGH
She hadn’t lived enough. She’d been murdered. In no world is that fair or just, as she claimed that life and death equally were. Would she believe the same if she were to see me, her daughter, lying on her grave painted in blood?
With my sticky left index finger, I painted a red star on my cheek. Mom had loved the stars. Because of her I’d loved them too.
I contorted myself with what effort I had left, to face the distant sky. There were no stars out tonight, not even a sliver of moonshine. I was alone, not even the universe for company. I think these are the seconds where you wish for someone to be sitting there, anybody, not so that they can help you but so that they can feel hopelessly afraid as well.
I think to myself, that if Fate were to allow any sympathy, it’d let me die in the company of stars.
Opening my eyes brought back the shock of reality. Summer was just rolling in. It wouldn't snow for months.
For once, it seemed, I had time.
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