I know the hill I stand on is naturally a bright, flourishing green, but in the predawn light it looks black. I guess that could be considered appropriate, given the circumstances. It is not a battlefield, not yet, but I can picture the carnage that is about to come so clearly.
From my perch, I can see almost everything.
It has always been my curse, that I could never be blinded to the truth. With the knowledge I carry, the filmy veil of glory and honour was never enough to hide the decay from my eyes. There was a time when my entire being longed to tear the curtain away. Yet here we stand, completely exposed, and a part of me wishes I could take it back.
Everyone would be shocked if they only knew how petrified I am right now. The men who are willing to fight and die for my sake must never know how much I detest what I am about to make them do, but it’s not really a secret that my armour is only gleaming because I’ve never worn it into battle before.
It’s not as though I don’t have blood on my hands. It’s the means and the scale that are different. My fear of death, both for myself and my followers, has suddenly doused the flames that have driven me to this point. I’m not sure anymore whether I can follow through. After all, haven’t I already achieved my goal? Whatever happens after this, an irrevocable change has occurred.
The waving grass around me is far too much like the ocean. Did he stand like this? Staring out of the dark water? I can picture him, standing on a beach with an infant in his arms, raging at destiny for forcing him to make such a decision, and yet still bracing himself to commit the greatest atrocity of his life just trying and defy fate.
He and I are much more alike than he will ever admit. Perhaps that is why he always hated me. I am his antithesis, his shadow self. I am what he so easily could have become.
I was not the one who brought us here. This was never what I wanted. Yet we are following the path to destruction plotted for us despite our struggles. I know this, but I cannot stop it. I have lost too much already to turn back now.
Today I will fulfil a terrible prophecy.
When true dawn breaks, I am going to kill my father.
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