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MY GREEN TEA LATTE
CHAPTER ONE
If there was something in the world that could reverse time, I would give up anything for it. If only there were second chances. If only I didn’t make that decision that I now realise, would ruin my life forever.
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I am staring outside my patio window, the sky is a periwinkle blue, the drifting clouds white, and everything seems so perfect and so still, just like a snapshot. But inside, my heart is bleeding, I am suffocating from within.
There are no words to describe what I am going through right now.
How can love hurt so much?
He told me that if I wasn’t going to treat him as a boyfriend then our relationship may as well go damn itself. Those were his last words to me. I replayed his words and what happened that night over and over again in my head. I replayed all the sweet times we spent together; everything seemed so real again, but it only lasted for a few seconds before it dawned on me that nothing could return to normal.
That time could not reverse itself, needless to say, it couldn't reverse a broken relationship either.
I might sound like an average girl who had just been dumped. But, the thing is that, this was my entire fault. If he really dumped me, I deserved to be dumped. It was me who had given up a perfect relationship. I didn’t know I loved him then. But now I do. And it is slowly eating me and tearing me apart. I had let go of a boy who I love more than the whole world, a boy who probably now hates me.
Sometimes I would ask myself, if he was right in front of me, what would I do?
I would beg him for his forgiveness. I would plead for a second chance. I would do anything to gain his love again. But no, the real me would cower away, I would be overwhelmed with shame and regret because, not only is my life wrecked, his too. And, that is, because he loves me.
Actually, he ‘loved’ me.
Nobody knows this side of me. On the surface, I am still Rosy, a former graduate from Cambridge University, and a girl who has minds of both a creative fashion designer and a successful entrepreneur. My father thinks I’m his perfect daughter. My mother thinks I’m her perfect daughter. My friends and colleagues admire and envy my perfect life. Even I, sometimes try to believe that I am perfect.
The whole world thinks my life is perfect. Only he knows. That I miss him. And that is the one thing that makes my life imperfect.
I don’t care if my parents are divorced. I don’t care if people talk behind my back about my rich upbringing. I don’t care if I lose my career and end up with nothing. I don’t care about anything except him.
My world is perfect with him. He is the lost fragment that can piece my shattered heart together. Without him, I feel soulless, I am heartbroken. I never thought of myself ending like how I am now.
He opened the doorway to my heart, and only he can close it.
If he knew how I felt, will he forgive me?
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The first time I saw him, was in a coffee shop.
He worked there as a barista part-time.
I remember asking him, what drinks were nice, and he said, green tea latte.
I remember the way he smiled. The way he talked.
He said he would match different drinks to his customers, he said I would definitely like it.
He was right, I absolutely loved it, it was delicious and creamy, and it was my drink.
It was a memory I don’t think I can ever forget.
That was the first time I saw him and already he left me an unforgettable impression. The problem was that I already had a boyfriend at that time.
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If you want to step inside my life, then we have to start fresh and flashback to six years ago, when I first met him. How I long to go back to those times but there really isn’t anything I can do now, is there?
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