I had to clench my jaw and cover my mouth to keep it inside. The scream, the vomit, the sobs. I moved to the basin and it hurled itself up and out of my mouth. I looked back into the cubicle at his face. He was dead, not dying. The blood had seeped most of the way from his wrists to the door. His cowboy hat still sat on his head, casting a band of shadow across his dead face. I turned again and hurled. The mirror was cracked with a shard missing. It was in Mick Sabre’s hand.
I doused my face with cold water a few times. While I had been thinking about what I can say to him, while I had been fetching a flare gun to protect my daughter from him, he was dying. My heart lurched, it wanted out through my ribs, up my throat. Any exit.
I can barely remember what thoughts were spinning in my head. I guess my mind was moving so fast that no single thought stayed with me. It was a funny thing, as though I was simply acting. My body was moving on its own treaty, not responding to me. It came again and again until the sink was full of pancake and coffee and black bile.
I realised I couldn’t go out there and send them all into a panic. I needed someone I trusted. Someone to help clean this up until we could contact the police - an ambulance would be of little use now. He was slumped with shoulders against the porcelain and his neck flapped forward.
Right then, part of me wanted Tara so bad. I would leave as soon as this was clean, I would find her and love her again.
I decided Joe was the only one I really knew, it was his diner and his concern. He had told a joke that had set the three truckers off laughing when I walked out of the bathroom. I approached and asked if I could have a word.
“Sure Ross, what is it?” I didn’t speak. He followed me and outside of the men’s. His glare darted between my eyes, reading me.
“I want to show you something Joe -- you remember that guy in the cowboy hat? he was here earlier.”
“Yeah, yeah I know the guy he’s been in before, where is he? He didn’t sneak out the back door did he?”
Little black eyes peered out from his fat suspicious face. He was a lot shorter than I was. With a bald head and a girth like a horse.
“No Joe, he – ” I couldn’t say it, I wanted to warn him but I couldn’t force the words out. “Just look, I said, opening the men’s and he entered. A second later, I could hear the distinct sound of bile splashing on the cement floor. A partially muted 'shit’ escaped the bathroom, but no one in the diner seemed to hear. Joe emerged with blue cheeks. He stormed past me and climbed onto a chair.
“Everyone I have news -
“No Joe, don’t-”
“Shut up, Stone,” he said ignoring my plea, “I need everyone to leave, there has been a death.”
People swapped looks of confusion. The tuckers didn’t know what to make of it, their faces wore daft unsettled expressions.
“Is this some kind of joke?” Mike Fisken was asking.
“I’m sorry people, but you all need to leave until the authorities get here.”
The biggest trucker, with a bandana and leather jacket, stood and he looked at me as if he wanted to throw one of those big hanging knuckles across my jaw. “What did he show you in there?”
He made his way toward the bathroom. I’m big enough to punish folks on the ice, but there was nothing I could do to stop this bull. He shrugged past me and into the bathroom and the others followed. The three of them emerged seconds later. The young one had tears rolling from each eye and Shane McGregor clasped his hands over his mouth. And the bull came back out with mad eyes.
“What have you done?” he started at me. I put my hands up.
“You’ve got it wrong he did it to himself,” I said, trying to keep the desperation out of my voice.
The others were all watching, curiously and fearful.
Joe was still on his perch. He cleared his throat and spoke again.
“Out, everyone, now.”
The young couple went to leave but stopped, still engrossed by what could be behind the bathroom doors.
“Nobody’s going anywhere, especially not him,” The Bull said tilting his head towards me, “Not until the five-oh gets here. I heard you arguing with that guy before, you killed him.”
Joe opened his mouth to argue, but the hard way the trucker eyed me sent the words back down his throat.
“I’m also going to arrange some protection. He has a gun and I have something in case he decides to use it.” He said, revealing big yellow teeth under a snarl. He charged down the aisle, between the tables and pushed through the doors.
He receded into the mist, just like Rafa, an outline then clothes suspended by the fog then nothing. The room was still and the air thick, as though the fog was inside.
I wanted to say something, cleanse my name of the condemnation. Janey still sat with the family, I didn’t want to look at her, something like this isn’t good for a little girl, isn’t good for anyone.
The death broke down awkward walls between everyone, as death does, everyone except me. I felt marked. While the truckers talked to the family, and Claire Fisken pointed and chattered with the couple, I stood alone. I wished Janey would doze off again, I hoped when she woke we would be home with Tara, sweet Tara. I quickly looked over at the clock it was almost 11 and the fog still choked the sun.
I had to act before The Bull came back with what I can only imagine was a weapon. With every step, the eyes scrutinized me a little more. I had the strange feeling that I was wading through mud.
“Joe, you know I didn’t do it, right?”
He didn’t speak. He just watched my face.
“Careful boy, one step this way and its over,” Shane McGregor said as I passed. The other trucker was younger, he had his hair cropped short across the back and sides which screamed military, but the flannel shirt and puffy vest suggested he was definitely a trucker. He had a kind face with soft cheekbones and an undefined jaw line. He was at that age, not too young to haul a truck but still too young to shave.
I moved near the family and Mike Fisken wrapped his arm across his kid. Janey’s eyes were closed and her hands folded into a pillow on the vinyl seat. I retreated to my original booth and everyone still watched. Claire Fisken gave me those longing eyes again. It was something about how she held my gaze. I found myself wanting her young body. Her blonde hair, her big doe eyes. I abandoned those thoughts again as the door pushed open.
The Bull took two steps. In one hand was a shotgun; with the other he held his mouth and blood seeped through his fingers as though he was squeezing an overripe plum. He dropped to his knees and the shotgun hit the linoleum with a metallic clang. He coughed and hunched. Blood sprayed from his nose and mouth.
“What is it Neil?” the younger trucker asked, with a quiver in his voice.
The Bull pulled himself up. His eyes were like Rafa’s, blood red and searching. He held the shotgun like a handgun, outstretched. Claire Fisken screamed. And Janey suddenly sat up, the gun fixed on her.
It was a second; I pulled it from my pocket, ripped out the safety and pulled the trigger. The room was bright red, so bright I couldn’t see for a few seconds after. The shotgun hit the ground and The Bull stumbled back, the flare rocket still working, the phosphorus melting the skin. Mike Fisken was up like a greyhound; he dived at the shotgun, rolled on his back and aimed it up at him.
What happened then, I can still barely describe. The bull let out a hoarse scream, the timbre of which set the children off wailing and screaming. The bull fell on Mike Fisken undeterred by the barrel centred on his gut. His big arms clamped around Mike’s neck and his head started up and down against Mike’s face with a sickly thud like an axe on wet timber. Mike was lost in it, stunned, and then he acted as if suddenly awake. Somewhere amongst it all, he squeezed off a shot. And with it, the bull’s entire body recoiled then fell back on him. From his back, a thick hole of viscera was displaced against the door. The bull died. His blood washed over the floor. Mike, with face bloody and nose hideously kinked, moved out from beneath the limp frame. His hands were still shaking around the gun.
"You murdered him," Joe began.
"He killed him!" Shane Mcgregor echoed.
“You saw him, you all saw that,” Mike started, frantically looking about, “He would have killed me, I- I had to.”
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