My real name was Jonas, but father called me Joan. I hated the name Jonas; it made me sound like one of those preachers in the bible. Mother said I should be proud to wear such a holy name on my birth certificate; I’d like to get that paper in my fists and crush it to dust.
I’d never been a fan of the bible, and all those little stories that sound like the fairy tales Mother read me when I was young. Up until I was about twelve I would go to church on a Sunday, like everyone else in the village, and hear the vicar drone on about these fables for what seemed like hours on end. But in the end, after countless Sunday school sessions and songs of “What a friend we have in Jesus”, I simply refused to go. At first father forced me, dragging me down the halls and shouting till his voice was horse. Then he bribed me with promises of sweets and long rides of Faigelah. When that didn’t work he got the vicar to condole me for my sins in some attempt to make me repent, In the end he gave up and I got to stay at home on Saturdays. That was my favourite time of the whole week.
Early morning, after my parents left to read hymns and recite from the bible, I would run out to Faigelah’s stable, grab her bridle and ride down to the beach, the exact place where I’d been forbidden to go. She didn’t buck or halt like she did with Father, so I was able to ride the full stretch of the beach without stopping. And as we flew along the shallows, I talked to her the whole time, telling her she was magic and that wings where sprouting from her spine. It always seemed to serge her on, she seemed to run that little bit faster when I said we were flying, like she actually believed it, and I did to.
They saw the sand in her hooves and smelt the salt on her breathe, but they didn’t say anything not until we were all sat down at the table. Then father would slam his beer mug down and shout the same disciplines he always did.
“You beast of a boy” he’d say “You wicked child! We have given you the food on our table and this is how you repay us? Is it?”
I’d shake my head in disbelief, in my own mock innocence “But father, what have I done?”
He would bellow in my ears and throw my dinner to the dogs but I still responded in the same innocent tone. Why shouldn’t I ride Faigelah? She rode so much better with me, she liked me more. Yet his resolve didn’t weaken, he never allowed me to ride Faigelah, If I hadn’t had such a disregard for his rules then I wouldn’t have bounded with her at all.
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